THE GOOD BOOK SAYS TURN THE OTHER CHEEK AND I TRY TO DO THAT WHEN EVER POSSIBLE, BUT I AM NO SAINT AND I CAN ONLY TURN THE OTHER CHEEK SO MANY TIMES. I LIKE TO GIVE PEOPLE SECOND CHANCES BECAUSE I FEEL EVERYONE CHANGES AND SOME CHANGE FOR THE BETTER IF GIVEN A CHANCE. AFTER THE PAST WEEK THOUGH I FIND MYSELF WONDERING IF THERE IS NOT SOME MERIT IN AUSTIN 3:16. THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE WATCHED WWE FOR MANY YEARS WILL KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS. ANYONE WHO HAS NOT WILL HAVE NO CLUE WHAT IT MEANS LOL.
I HAVE BEEN THROUGH MUCH IN THE PAST YEAR, AND I HAVE DEPENDED ON MY TRUE FRIENDS TO HELP ME NOT FALL INTO A DEPRESSION FOR WHICH I THERE IS NO EXCAPE. I ALWAYS WANT TO BELIEVE THE BEST OF THOSE I CALL FRIEND, AND WHEN ONE OR MORE OF THEM DO NOT LIVE UP TO MY TRUST AND EXPECTATIONS OF THEIR CHARACTOR IT HURTS ME. THE INTERESTING THING IS EVEN WHEN SOMEONE HURTS ME I CAN FORGIVE THEM IF THEY SAY SORRY AND MEAN IT. I HAD SOMEONE I CALLED MY FRIENDE ABOUT 2 YEARS AGO. THIS PERSON WAS VERY IMPORTANT TO ME AND WHEN THIS PERSON TURNED ON ME IT LEFT ME DEVISTATED. I SHOULD HAVE TOOK AUSTIN 3:16 TO HEART BACK THEN. WHEN YOU LOVE AND TRUST SOMEONE AND THEY TURN ON YOU IT CUTS DEEPER THEN ANY KNIFE.
MY PROBLEM IS I NEVER LEARN WHEN IT COMES TO PEOPLE. I ALWAYS WANT TO THINK THE BEST OF EVEYONE AND WHEN THEY DO NOT LIVE UP TO MY VISION OF THEM AS HUMAN BEINGS SO OFTEN DO I GET HURT. I REALIZE I HAVE NO ONE BUT MYSELF TO BLAME WHEN I TRUST THE WORNG PEOPLE. I ALSO FIND IT INTERESTING HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE MORE THEN WILLING TO TELL ONE WHAT A FOOL THEY ARE IF THEY TRUST THE WRONG PEOPLE.
WHEN IT IS ALL SAID AND DONE WE NEVER REALLY KNOW WHAT IS IN SOMEONES HEART. I HAVE KNOW PEOPLE TO STRIKE OUT IN ANGER WHEN YOU YOURSELF CAN NOT SEE WHERE YOU DID ANYTHING WRONG. I HAVE SEVERAL BIPOLAR FRIENDS THE INTERESTING THING IS WHEN THEY HAVE AN EPISODE WHERE IT FLAIRS UP , EVEN IF THEY HURT MY FEELINGS AT THE TIME, I CAN FORGIVE THEM WHEN THEY SAY SORRY. MY ONE FRIEND IN MY REAL LIFE AND I HAD A DISPUTE A FEW WEEKS AGO AND I ACTUALLY THOUGHT SHE WAS GONNA HIT ME. I TOLD HER IF SHE DID I WOULD HAVE HER ARRESTED. SHE STOPPED AND WE BOTH WENT INTO OUR HOUSES. FIFTEEN MINUTES LATER SHE CALLED ME AND APPOLOGIZED :) ALL WAS WELL. INFACT I JUST HELPED HER AND HER FAMILY FINNISH CLEANING A HOUSE ANOTHER NEIGHBOR OF OURS HAD JUST MOVED OUT OF LAST NIGHT. I FIND WHEN SOMEONE IS YOUR FRIEND YOUR REAL FRIEND IT IS QUITE EASY TO FORGIVE THEM BECAUSE YOU WANT TO KEEP THEM IN YOUR LIFE.
DID I MENTION THAT MY FRIEND WENT WITH ME TO THE HOSPITAL WHEN I WAS ADMITTED IN OCT AND STAYED AT THE HOSPITAL WITH ME THE WHOLE TIME I WAS IN THERE. NOW THAT IS A GOOD FRIEND AND WORTH KEEPING EVER IF THEY DO HAVE MOOD SWINGS :) HELL I HAVE THEM MYSELF, AND SHE KEEPS ME. REAK FRIENDS CAN OVER LOOK OUT LITTLE PERSONALITY FLAWS, AND LOVE US JUST THE SAME AS IF WE HAD NONE.
